I want to like how I look rn but I’m really shaky with body judgment and sad about it
I haven’t been touched in almost three months and it is making me question the folds of my skin as if they hold responsible for the their own lonely contact
2 decades of being fucked up by gendered socialization forces me to do this obsessive thing with my selfies where
i open them on my phone and experiment with covering parts of myself until i am
convinced that i would pass as a boy to strangers.
sometimes i only take off a cheekbone or an eyebrow, other times i chop off the upper half of my body.
the mirror will inevitably tell me i cannot mimic this in real life and i resign to living only on the internet.
i am a mess
// this world has created a monster
Haha are you agreeing, cosmic-femme?
- seen on a local storage company sign